oh to be in love again...

ive been kinda been in odd moods lately. remember how i posted that blog lately saying that i have felt off? im still feelinb that way! i dont know why really. 

actually, i do know why. just memories and things that have come up that make me remember a love i lost. i wish so badly that i could be in love with someone again.  i love being in love and i love loving someone.  i love doing all the little things to make someone else happy.  there is literally nothing like coming home to a person who loves you and is so excited to see you and then you can return that same excitement and happiness and comfort.

i just miss having a noah to my ally. i love the notebook. some of you may have seen previous entries about me loving love, but this actually may be the most recent post ive written about love in about a year. i figured it was about time.  i want a love like the notebook. seriously, to this date, that movie remains one of my all time favorite movies. its so genuine and anyone who says that love like the one in that movie doesn't exist...they are either bitter or extremely pessimistic because i have seen that love and i have experienced a love for someone like that.

lately i have been thinking a lot about being in love again. ive been thinking that maybe just maybe the person i once loved IS the person i am supposed to be with no matter whats happened...i dont know how to tell the difference of a gut feeling or me just wishing i could give my love to someone so badly that i would still choose him if i had to choose someone. does that make sense? it wouldn't be settling though. please don't think of it as that. but it would be a comfort to choose him because i have felt safe and loved before from said person.

i don't know. i don't know. i don't know. we shall see i guess. i just hate being patient sometimes. i know that there is a GREAT love out there for me. just waiting for it is growing tiring. anyways, here are some really great songs ive found lately. i hope you enjoy them.

what i love this very thursday

sooo this week (as you most likely saw before) i have been playing on stumble upon A LOT. ive found many, many neat things. some of the things i've really been looking at this week are wedding DIY blogs and well just basically anything wedding.

no im not getting married. in fact, i dont even have a boyfriend. that doesnt stop me from looking at these blogs and websites though! no way! i love anything and everything to do with weddings. so much actually, that ive been contemplating becoming a wedding planner. ive been thinking about doing this for a few years and with all my interests and love for weddings, love, designing, love, fashion, love, music, love, and crafts...i just feel like its a career that would be a really good combination of everything im passionate about.

so this thursday i am dedicating it to "what i love this very thursday WEDDING edition :) "

1. these diy balls are so precious. how could would it be to make light fixtures out of these? or run white christmas lights through them for outdoor (or indoor as well) lighting? you can find the directions to make these, along with other ideas here.

2. one of THEE cutest weddings i have seen in a long time. an UP inspired wedding. i absolutely love this movie. its is so sweet. it makes me want an adventure book too :)

3. one of the more beautiful wedding i have seen. her dress is so beautiful. her husband looks so darling in his bow tie. everything from the food, to the outside decorations...when i get married i think ill draw a lot of inspiration from this wedding. the photo of her flowers does not even do it justice. i strongly recommend you click the link to see all their photos!

4. i have always adored the idea of having a photo booth at  a wedding reception. not only could you rent an actualy photobooth but you could use the idea in the above photo and have friends and family take pictures of your wedding, themselves, and you with different types of cameras. each of the cameras would use different film. itd be such a neat and eclectic way to capture your wedding.

4. the twigs & honey shop makes some of the most beautiful headbands i have seen. how lovely and delicate and beautiful are these statement head pieces. i love them.

5. how adoreable is this centerpiece? i think its brilliant. the steps to make them are here.

6. i have always adored the idea of having a photo booth at  a wedding reception. not only could you rent an actualy photobooth but you could use the idea in the above photo and have friends and family take pictures of your wedding, themselves, and you with different types of cameras. each of the cameras would use different film. itd be such a neat and eclectic way to capture your wedding.


IN CONCLUSION,
there are so many other ideas i love. im sure ill be posting more soon seeing as though i really would love to jumpstart my wedding planning career and ideas. one remaining thing i do love though: the idea of cupcakes at wedding. some people are cake people but if you havent noticed im definitely a cupcake person :)

what is love to you?

i decided to ask a few of the people i know what love means to them. in their own words, i wanted them to define love and how they feel its supposed to be. this is what i've recieved so far :)

from my uncle henry:

i love this by the way!

"after almost 38 years together I still can't describe love, but it sure feels good to be in love."
-henry

from the lovely dianna mcallister:

she and her husband chaz have been married since fall of 2009. they are one of the cutest couples :)

"Love is a small word with big meaning, and it will always mean something different for every person, but I choose to look at it like this eight-year-olds answer to the same question..."Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends every day even though they know eachother so well." Love is acceptance and peace with another person. "There are two kinds of love: Our love and God's love, but God made both kinds." -Dianna McAllister

from the darling shawna o'neil:

"love, love, love, beauty. It's that refreshing euphoric feeling, that everlasting touch. That feeling that is there when you first open your eyes, the trust- the hope- the love with no lies. That feeling that is there when you crawl into bed, that feeling of love that overwhelms your head. The flutter in your stomach that makes your head light, the care that keeps you from going to bed in a fight. :) "

 -shawna o'neil

from the pretty ashley lorona:

"love is one of the easiest things to feel but hardest to explain. Its that excited feeling that keeps you up at night. The same feeling that makes you go out and by that dress, love that song, and give up things once important to you, for the happiness of someone else. Love is the bond that is created after recognizing someones greatness . You can create it if you just open your eyes to see the positive things in another person. If you can do this easily, you'll love easily. " 

-ashley lorona

from the dear maggie sciales:

"love is what makes you get up in the morning when you think you might see him soon, and what makes it hard to sleep after you just left him. love puts the smile on your face, in your eyes and in your voice. love is what makes you put your hair in that bun you have such a hard time doing because he says it looks beautiful, but love also makes you feel cute in pajamas because he says you are. love is the feeling you get when you say the same thing at the same time, and laugh at the same joke, even when it's not funny to anyone else. i guess love is being perfect together, and to each other. "

-maggie 

from others:

"love is a realization that you have found someone you can relate to on almost every aspect of life, and for where you falter they are stronger. It is not about the diamonds, chocolate, and commercialized holidays. It is about being with the one that makes you the happiest as well as you making the ones who love you enjoy their lives. It is a two way street that when ridden properly can be the best times in anyone's life." -liam

"you've found true love when you can be best friends with that person for the rest of your life and not get bored with them. You've found actual love if that other person motivates you to be the best that you can possibly be.If you're having a hard time sleeping because your reality is better than your dreams, you've found true love.You may be in love when you find NOT the perfect person, but an imperfect person you see perfectly. The most beautiful things in life cannot be seen or touched or even heard, but they must be felt with the heart instead.... But that's the sappy side of me, the other side says, screw it, love will come one day. =)" -Steve

happy valentines day

since i don't have a significant other just yet in my life, i want to use today to keep my chin up, and hopefully keep other people's chins up, that don't have that special someone in their life either. i feel like today shouldn't just be about celebrating a relationship with a boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, wife...i believe today should be a celebration of all things love. i think it should be a day where if you are committed to someone then you appreciate and recognize him or her for everything they've done, every way they have affected you, every way they love to love you.

i also think it should be a day that gives others hope and lets others know that there is a great love out there. i think its really neat to know that when you are waiting for "the one" ...that "one" is also waiting for you! how neat is that? maybe im just really entertained by little things like this, but i think today is just a really special day.

there is so much love out there in the world to give and recieve. i dont understand why today has to be just about couples! so many people get so sad about today, but i think they really just need to stay positive. i know today has been a little hard for me :/ everytime that i start to get a little sad though i just think that "maybe this person is it and if i give it time then everything will turn out how i want." even if it doesn't though, there's going to be someone out there who will workout and when we find each other its going to be everything i ever dreamed of.

for that i am so excited. i'm going to write another blog later with people responses as to what love means to them. this should be interesting. if you'd like to contribute, go ahead and just leave a comment :)

happy valentines day !

well hello. its been quite some time.

goodness. its been months. ive been so busy and terrible at getting around to writing :/ procrastination is one thing i am crossing off my list of terrible personality traits this year. being replaced with so many new attitudes i do not even know where to begin! :)

first off. let me just tell you...if you have not seen SEX AND THE CITY... i highly recommend watching it. unless that is seeing and talking about sex and relationships highly offends you or makes you uncomfortable.

to be honest the show is so much more than that. i feel like every girl can relate to each character in one way or another. it gives you such a different outlook on being single and/or in a relationship! i feel good about being single now and having my own thing to do. its made me want to remain single and love having that independence...do things for me and figure out who i am first before i enter into a relationship with anyone else! :)

also...i have an even greater appreciation for music lately. has anyone seen 500 days of summer? i HIGHLY recommend it. its such a good movie! i suggest watching it with an OPEN and REALISTIC mind. do not go into it thinking all romantic-like and think of the fairy-tale ending. this movie is exactly what could happen to any couple. it takes a different perspective on things. i love it :) the music is incredible in it. so many amazing, indie artists. in fact, the movie was written and then the music was chosen for it and then rewritten to fit the soundtrack! i think thats incredible

it is definitely in my top ten.

lets see ... what else is new...i have just come to appreciate everything so much more. i dont feel like i take anything for granted. whether its materialistic or not, i appreciate fashion so much more. i loved it before but now its a passion of mine. i walked into the store anthropology and about had a heart attack! ive been in there before but just having that new found appreciation for things...i loved everything i saw. never have i ever been into a store where i could have walked around and touched everything i saw. i took it all in. and loved every minute i was in there.

dont we need more moments like those in life? the ones where we can stop and look around, and just appreciate everything about what were experience right then?

i think so. this year i want to create more of those.

anyways. i hope everyone is having a great year so far. :) ill try and update as much as i can.

have a beautiful day

xoxo.

The best love is

the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds.

-noal calhoun



noah calhoon says it best in the notebook. this movie will always be my number one favorite movie. i love it. i want to marry someone just like noah because i think of myself to be just like allie. one of my closest friends said i am just like her. goodness. this movie just envelops everything i believe about love.

one time i thought i found my noah. after a year and a half he turned out to be no such thing. far from it. and so everytime i watch this now, my hope continues to grow that my noah, my real, actual noah, is somewhere out though. he is waiting for me to come along.

he is going to come up to me and ask me to dance. sing me "ill be seeing you" by billie holiday. and forever he will have captured me to be his forever and ever.

oh i cannot wait. :)